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Hi all:

Last night, lying in bed, just before closing my eyes for what I hoped (fingers crossed) was an uninterrupted sleep, I remembered that I hadn’t scheduled today’s email to plop into your email inboxes at 7:00 a.m. After realizing this, I stayed in bed, turned on my current favorite falling-to-sleep meditation and actually did fall asleep. It was kind of unlike me to let that go, but this is part of the growth I’m working on. I mean, who aside from me, actually cares that this email arrives at 7:00 a.m.? Realizing that on the 1-10 scale of importance that it’s about a -3 was actually a good exercise for me. I sometimes hold myself to some silly internal rules thinking that if I follow them it means something, but what does it really mean? What it really means is that I’ve scheduled the email to arrive at 7:00 a.m. and that’s it. I HAD written an email yesterday to share, but I  knew it wasn’t a very good email and subconsciously I didn’t want to send it out. (I’ll rewrite it for another day and I’ll make it better.) Letting go of my rule was freeing and also a little scary. I mean I don’t want to become totally lax and send these emails out haphazardly; that doesn’t suit me either. But a slight and occasional departure from my internal structure is a-ok and I’m a-ok.

Happy Adventuring,